Wow, this guy nails a description of depression pretty well. From the post Depression, Hope, and Travis Tritt « The Seeking Pastor
I had been used to having success without trying very hard. Good grades, somewhat decent athletic ability, spiritual growth, a good family–all of these things had come to me quite easily or at least it seemed that way. But when I moved out, got married, got a job, and became a pastor all I did was fail.
And fail and fail and fail.
It didn’t matter how hard I tried, how much I prayed, or how many tears I cried. I kept on failing. This led me to one of the worst thoughts that people can have about themselves. I began to think of myself as a failure.
I know now that a failure is an event, not a person. I didn’t know that then. My marriage, job, and church were all having problems and it was all my fault.